Dear 20-yo-HG,
16/11/2022
Hi, I am going to use swear words.
What the fuck just happened today? It's weird that a part of me saw it coming. How did I even get through it?
Firstly, college. Department turning its back on me, refusing to give permission to attend competitions. Being this whole damn chunk of an ass, for no apparent reason other than the fact that we are not really under their control. I don't care. I will have to handle it, right? Also, did we get any prizes in that Cresent Co
Hemalatha G
i am not going to write. i am going to talk. to all of you. ask you how do i continue to pursue something when the backbone of the same is waning away infront of my eyes. i am going to cry, rant and ask you questions you can't answer. so, stay around. i ask with right, be here. we should be here now. i don't give a damn if i sound dramatic or pointless, which i don't think i am. i am going to do this in installments. as long as i can.
1) where will i go and write when 20-yo-HG waits for my let #yqbaba#arandomlistofrandomness#letterto20yoHG
Hemalatha G
hedgelecktic - IG
hghoover22@gmail.com
ping me where you're comfortable doing it if you're in touch with me on other platforms already. i am genuinely scared. i am scared.
remind me who else to tag.
Hemalatha G
Hemalatha G
I look at the screenshots infront of me, Screenshots of my life flashing before me in a huge screen, blinding me to reality,
These shots stranded without labels,
Hanging in the timeline, but upside down at certain places
And crooked like my mind, at others.
You know, it's like
Life acquiring life to mock you, to hold you by the neck,
Threatening you to spit out something, anything. huh. swallow. (hand on face)
Hemalatha G
A random list of randomness:
1) i am sitting in a chair, trying to feel past the burning sensation in my thumb born out of my mouth gnawing at the skin along with the nails. all the while, my lip skin hugging my upper teeth like long lost erasers hidden under sofas and chairs, so i am sitting in a chair. i am trying to grow sanity on my lap.
2) whistle is about to blow. i hope the pressure cooker doesn't give up. i am hungry because i was too exhausted, too unconcerned to have lunch today, s #arandomlistofrandomness
Hemalatha G
Overwhelming.
Have you ever sat on bus stop benches because that's where you can be, nowhere else has space for you to breathe
Or probably in railway stations, not taking a foot forward, your toes clutching the platform ground like that's where the heart lies, that's only where the heart beats,
In sync with the trains whooshing past and slowing down,
What's more challenging to capture is what goes on beyond the drama scene you look at everyday,
People getting down, people clutching their phones
Hemalatha G
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First things first.
Ozhunga saapdu, enna aanalum food skip pannadha, summa time illa idhu illanu reason solitu irukadha, i'll know.
hey you.
i would collect all the stars that
Hemalatha G
I don't want to go back to my past.
I love my present and I will do salsa in joy to handle my today's troubles,
Than be on a ride again to the bumpy coast,
I'd rather be free flowing in my present than be trapped in my old little bubbles.
I talk like a saint, but how does a saint talk?
Well, I talk like I have matured overnight and give lectures on how the current moment is all everyone should live for,
C'mon I am mad and probably a bit too sad to accept that the reality sucks.